Do we need to be perfect? Who out there shares the same issue as myself, when it comes to feeling like you need to appear flawless? I am OK with showing flaws as long as they are surface enough for me to poke fun at myself and give someone a good laugh. However, when it comes to the real stuff, the things that truly cut into my soul, I run away from everyone and hide in my protective bubble. Why am I so willing to offer advice or pray for someone and so un-willing to ask. The Lord said, “You have not because you ask not”. I am not asking, not telling and certainly hiding. My dear friend, prompted by The Holy Spirit, called me out on the floor this morning. She said, “Without the shield of your sisters in Christ interceding in prayer for you, you are vulnerable to the attacks of Satan. Why are you so afraid to ask for prayer? Why do you choose to suffer alone? No one has it all together and we help each other when we are transparent and ask for prayer.”
I was just searching and wondering, who struggles with this? This feeling that if they see the real me they won’t love me. Fear of rejection. Being vulnerable is scary. Are you refusing to risk allowing yourself to be loved? God loves us and created us to be loved. Let’s not rob someone of the blessing of truly knowing us, faults and all, and truly loving us in Christ.
I'm with you on this.
ReplyDeleteI also often struggle with asking for prayer for myself (I have no problem asking on behave of others). The times I do asks for myself rides on the back of the many times I haven't. Often I think that I'm just annoying others by asking even though I know that's a lie. I suppose it is as you say vulverability...fear of rejection... can it be?
Yes, it is fear and I am coming so far in this area. I actually asked for prayer three or four times last week! Yea. I wish I didn't need to ask, but I am so thankful that I did ask and not try to hide in it!
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